Hi friends!
The last couple of weeks have been, to be completely honest, some of the most exhausting weeks I've had in a while. Sometimes, I like to think I am Superwoman, that I can take on everything that comes my way. I'm even so silly as to not just think it, but to actually try to do it. I have a lot to balance right now, and I won't ever settle for giving things less than everything I've got. There is some twisted part of me that gets some sort of thrill over stretching myself to thin, and this is a problem because I'm focused on my own strength to see me through.What my flesh really likes about trying to juggle 27 different things, is the false sense of control I feel when I get things done that seemed impossible.
It seems that whenever I get in these situations of "puffed-upedness" (I do believe I just created a word) that God finds a way to so graciously humble me and remind me that I don't actually have it all together the way I think I do. Usually, that comes in the form of all 27 juggling balls falling to the ground at close to the same time. I'm sort of in that place right now. I'm tired, I'm worn out, and I'm realizing that I'm not going to make it through everything I need to on my own.
So, I love this verse in Psalm 73, it's in verse 26 that the author says, "my flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." We are not strong enough to fight the battle, to defeat the enemy, to win the day. Our flesh will fail, our weak hearts will give out unless we go to the One, the Source, of all strength and ask Him to not only fill us, but also to take back control over the things we are holding on to.
I know that I am not alone in this, I'm sure we can all look back and find a place in life where we have all seen our flesh and heart fail. Let's face the facts, none of us will ever be Superwoman. Remember, the Lord is strong, He is in control, He is here to hold you up and pull you through...forever. It's exhausting to try to hold things together that don't even truly and fully belong to us, and I don't know about the rest of you but I am ready to lay all of my stuff down, to put it all in the hands of my strong God!
Sincerely,
Kaity
